Yes thats you!?!?! Dummy....No it can't be.....YESSSSS
So as I was trying to keep my spandex up (yes quality spandex, not the five dollar cheap ones! Q U A L I T Y ) I realize the medium isn't quite my size...but hold up I can not, I mean I can not be fitting into a small...or can I? So whats the deal why do I feel like I am literally swimming in my clothes now....I mean granted I am not the smallest size but I was comfortable with my size 12 and now I am not sure if I am already at 11 or maybe an in between 12 and 11 cause seriously what is up with my saggy jeans in the knees? How cute is that....NOT!!!!
I woke up this morning telling my friend how I need to reach my goal of being at 150 and how no matter what the purpose is to reach a goal; to complete it and to not half ass it... Feel me?!?! BUTTTT than I want to the bathroom and saw myself in two, not one but two full length mirrors and I was like umm I feel like ,I look like I might need a piece of chicken how will I look at at 150? Is 150 what I really want....
I asked/told myself: Melissa what exactly do you want? Now is the time to reevulate goals because maybe you have gotten to where you need to be and a number isn't quite what you need to define the accomplishment of that goal...I dunno I am just a thought
So thats the question for the weekend...Do I keep pushing to get to that number goal....Do I change it up maybe get to 160 maintain and work out my body to a shape I want (example: flat stomach, toner legs, etc etc) or do I go to as far as I can? I mean I don't know! I never gotten this far in any diet so I am not sure how this would work or not! When i do figure it out I'll be sure to share with you my .5 readers :crickets crickets:
Oh and I hopped on the scale: I KNOWWWW AFTER ALL THAT CRAP ABOUT GIVING IT A BREAK AND NOT DRIVING MYSELF CRAZY....well I got on it...and the number the number is the same exact damn number!!!
After busting my ass going to the gym twice a day and yoga I haven't lost anything!!!
But I am not all that angry I feel and see myself in the skinnest light I have ever seen my self....so it is what it is!
Have a great one friends...I will be enjoying time celebrating my little niecy lucky 7 cumpleanooooooo....OH YES
--Ex Fat Girl
i think the best thing to do is not focus so much on the number on the scale, and just base your goals on what you see in the mirror. If you are happy with what you see, just maintain girl!
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