Dear Fat Girl

Dear Fat Girl

Hi, how are you? Listen I know we got a lot to talk about and that maybe I shoulda said all of this a long time ago but better late then never. I am sorry, for a long time I put a lot if burden on you! You carried all the weight while I just stood back and made remarks of how "you could do better", you went out in public and held your head up high (something I could never do) even when you wasn't feeling yourself, you shined despite what you or others thought of your physical appearance. Instead of me helping you, I convinced you to try cheap easy way out knowing that those fixes wouldn't fix anything. You not only had to deal with how you was feeling about yourself but also deal with life moving at a speed of lighting but still not fast enough. I'll admit I didn't do anything to help, I just sat back and laughed in your face when you tried to do it, I encouraged the binges and even ask you to settle. I guess I got bored or something and decided to take the front seat and I am sorry for just pushing you out the way, for not giving you a heads up. But I felt we was in the right spot to just do it, to just move on from that stage. I bashed you, I posted all your info and made it seemed like you was carrying a disease I was to shallow and thought skinny was beautiful and big needed to try hard enough :'(. I didn't consult with you the master plan or checked in what you felt. I just did it and maybe It was best I did it that way because I have seen great results but I should never bash what we once was and I am sorry because I feel like maybe I have.

I am sorry! Because truthfully you was beautiful, you allowed no one to tell you different even when deep down I had already agreed with them, I am sorry I made it seem like life sucked back then because truthfully you held it down and the moments lived are just as beautiful as the one we are experiencing now.

Fat girl, you gave us a strong foundation and while I let you do all the work and criticized and then eventually just grabbed the wheel from you I haven't forgotten all you did for us the person you made today!

I love you and I hope you can understand this was for the best of us and that eventually we can come to terms.

I want you to know we are ten pounds from a number we don't ever recall seeing and I am only getting there because you made me that much stronger to get there!

With lots of love
-Ex Fat girl