Weekend Recap Part

Hola!

So much to say and I don't know where to even begin! Gosh! So I'll begin with where I left off on Friday!

As expected I was devastated on Friday, I was so disappointed at myself for gaining a pound! Well 1.3 to be technical! I wanted to cry and I didn't. Instead, I did something worst. I over analyze every meal and situation and pin pointed how I could do differently (I was better off crying and than moving on) while I was trying to enjoy my Friday off from work, I was thinking and over thinking how I am going to get rid of the pound. It was as if I was scared to eat and didn't want to touch anything! Than later in the day I was ready to eat a slice of pizza, it went from wanting pizza to wanting Chinese food. I felt as if I fucked up anyways let me get it out my system and go hard on Saturday. Every time I feel this way I stand in front of my full length mirror and I ask my self do I really want to do this? The answer was a quiet no. I opt for a movie instead and order Alvin and Chipmunk 2 it was cute!!! (I recommend it for a quiet night!) and that was my Friday!

Saturday, I got up early and went on my 5 mile path with my sister girl before the summer heat beat us with a bat! We ran ran and ran our little hearts! Went up steep hills and climb never ending stairs but we did it! Later in the day I went shopping! Shopping has become my new thing! I love to try things on even if I won't buy it, just to see how it fits me! I had stopped shopping because for so long I would be so upset with how things fit me but now, NOW I WANT IT ALL...I tried on this porno shoes (I refer to them as porno shoes cause the heals are crazy) and I would never even look at these twice because of insecurities because I felt that I am too heavy to be in heals 4 inch and higher...well I was this close to getting these heals! THEY WAS BAD =] I didn't get them because I didn't have any funds but eventually I'll get some porno heals!!! Watch me!!!

(BCBG Sale 25 bucks! Last pair at Macy!!!)

Later in the night we was all sitting on my porch (the family) and I just started feeling fatigue, it was a new feeling! I have never felt like that!!!! I felt like I was going to die!!! Well maybe not dying but you know lol, I felt like I needed something to wake me up it was as if my body was about to shut down on me! I couldn't even stay up and my head was pounding like there was a bass party up in there! My mom wanted me to eat but I insisted that I was okay and I just popped a motrin and went to sleep!!!

Sunday I just relaxed- my body was asking for some relaxation and I gave it that! I said I would listen to my body and I did just that! I was feeling better about the pound and now just see it as a challenge because I KNEW IT wouldn't be an easy rode! It might have started easy but I knew that was too good to be true! NOW THE REAL TEST COMES and this test I will Pass!!!

Sunday was also Jean day! For the longest while size 14/13 was not my size I refused to buy anything over 14! I would buy a bunch of jeans that went up with a good fight but really I couldn't even move in them! So I would buy them, not return them and hope to one day fit...I had a few pairs I'd say about 6 or 7! Well Guess what they at fit comfortably, some even baggy! I have a pile I am giving away because well I don't want to ever fill them up and the other half fits me just right! Might be too big in a month or so! So I will do my best to wear them out now and than later give them away or trash them! There was only one pair that fit a bit tight! I laughed and even wonder why I got them cause I couldn't imagine them even going up!

On another note

I read up on Plateaus and it said how you have to shake it up a bit to avoid it! So this week I stopped with my Kelloggs shake and am eating cheerios for breakfeast! I also switched up my workout this week and did little cardio only for a warm up and just focused on strength training!!! Tomorrow I am doing my cardio (spin) and Wed might some strength only training [[still need to find something for my arms! HELP!)]] and so I am looking forward to hopping on the scale again and seeing a MINUS not a PLUS!!!!

And a gasp for the week

Someone said my boobs are getting smaller! GASPPPP OH NO NOT MY GIRLIES!!! I miss them already!!! lol or not really hahaha

Later Kids

Ex Fat Girl

When I have a chance to breath I'll post some before and present pics! Woot Woot