Thoughts before Tomorrow's Weigh In

Howdy Kiddies [[Imagine if I went around saying Howdy Kiddies, I am sure I'd get mega side eyes from all over]]

So much to say, where should I start?....Hmmm

Let's see

A two week recap- 2 weeks ago, I hopped on the scale expecting the worst and seeing the best, 174!!! I don't remember the last time I saw any number below 190 on the scale, so of course this was BEYOND GOOD NEWS!!!!! I stayed focus allowing myself to be able to go out and enjoy dinners by making sure I worked extra hard in the gym, I ran in the hot sun and made myself a nice little 5 mile path that I lovee!!! I also conquer spinning class...How did that happen beats me! !!! Aside from my usual workout.... On a scale from 1 to 10, 1 being the lowest and 10 being the highest, I rate those two weeks a 7! A 7 you ask? Yup, some of the choicest I made to eat up my calories weren't the best one, I want to add more fruits, and I think overall there is always room for improvement!

Now what do I except to see tomorrow- I HOPE TO SEE 174 AND OR LOWER! I am not going to lie, I might be a little bum if I see 174 and I will be extremely disappointed if I gain anything! I might beat myself up for a little...I know this about myself! I get easily discourage and I hope the blog will serve as a reminder that I excepted for ish to not always work out like I plan or hope or wish for...but I shouldn't let it stop me that BY ANY MEAN NECESSARY...I should push harder!!!! But my weigh ins have had big weight lost which automatically trained me now to want to see jumps of 5 pounds down (especially cause I avoid the scale at all cost) :sigh: I just hope I am able to handle the scale tomorrow GOOD OR BAD!

A little extra for the month's wrap up...When I work out, I work out in t-shirts and knee length champion yoga pants! I think I am ready to start running in tanks and shorts (GASP!!!) Am I really? I don't know to be honest, the folks around my way make any woman with curves feel like she is a big piece of meat, I can only imagine the reactions of me walking out my house in some running shorts [My thunder thighs are STILL THERE]! But I think it's time, I want to be able to be comfortable in my own skin no matter how my skin is looking! And embracing myself now, I think overall will HELP!!! I am also in need of a bathing suit. I don't really own any and I plan to be a beach bum on my days off so I need something! I was hoping to be able to wear a two piece but I am not ready for that and realistically my body is not in the shape I want it to be to be able to wear that. I am thinking of a sexy one piece! However I do want to buy a black string bikini to hang up on my door (remember that yoga commercial jejejej) for some motivation and hopefully to fit in it how I want it to fit and look, even if that means publicly wearing it next summer! Next Friday, I am going to a boxing class (my boss recommended it, she said it's intense but I am ready for it and plus a full body work out) so I'll need boxing gloves and strings (Pink gloves <3 ) so really all this means I need a trip to TARGET!!!!!! I'll see what I end up getting next weekend [I am trying to "save" more] so we shall see!!

Alrighty, I think I chatted it up enough!

We shall face the music tomorrow!!!

Later
Ex Fat Girl