Yup
it happened when I least wanted it to happen it happened on Christmas! I
had the last meltdown of the year. The type of meltdown where you don't
wanna do nothing but cry and be alone. I cried for so many reasons. I
beg to God for so many things. I was angry for so many reasons. I felt
selfish for being angry. I had a whole list of people to blame and then I
had myself and only myself to blame. It was tough (picture a heroine
addict going cold turkey) that's how the 24th and 25th were for me. I
only found relief in an empty apartment where I sat in a corner and
cried my eyes out (dramatic much) but that's how it happened.
The
only reason I am sharing is because I don't think I was the only one in
the world who felt that miserable that crummy. I am sure someone out
there felt the same and had their own version of a meltdown. However
with my meltdown with all my tears, I knew that tomorrow will be a new
day, the world has not stopped because mine did. I also knew that
tomorrow may be better or not but I had that little hope that it may. No
matter how angry I am I always have a little bit of hope.
Today
I woke up. I am doing what I should have done on Sunday or early
Monday. I am getting pretty. I am going to put my best foot forward and
just roll with the punches because that's just how I know how to do.
I
hope you had a much better Christmas my thoughts and prayers to those
who had a low one. Please know you are not alone in your sorrow.
Blessings to my wonderful readers. I hope I have something more cheerful to offer for the new year ;).
Meli
It's funny because we've hung out a few times and if I didn't know about your situation, I would think your life is wonderful and worry free.
ReplyDeleteYou're stronger than you think Mel and it's a quality I most certainly admire. We all have moments where crying seems like the only thing we can do. I commend you on your ability to pick yourself back up though. You always seem to find reasons to smile and be positive even when everything around you seems bleak. I really hope you are reunited with you mister soon and I hope 2013 is kinder to you than 2012 was.
PS - At least 2012 got us to finally meet and hang out!
I promise ill do something special :). I'm sending you loads of positive vibes your way. I have a feeling 2013 will be a good year for you...and I'm pretty good with these hunches.
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