Just One Of Those Days

....A person can only hold so much until it's too much to hold in and eventually they BURST!!! Today is one of those days that I feel like I might just Burst! Too many thoughts running around in my heads to be able to focus on anything in particular.

While I write this blog and try to keep it solely on weight loss it's important for me to highlight to my readers the real deal because everything flows together. An off day is possibly the worst thing that can happen to someone who doesn't have the best eating habits or for someone who has recently adapted a new "life style" the first thing you want to do is eat! I am not sure why and believe me I have tried to come up with a good reason, but I don't understand the connection while I have tried to find other stress relievers my favorite one has always been FOOD and maybe this is why losing weight has been kind of an easy rode as of now! Life is flowing at a certain pace that I feel like I can manage. I have learned how to swallow a lot of the bad and look at the BRIGHTER SIDE because you know what SOMEONE ELSE MAY HAVE IT WORST, because I shouldn't count the negative but rejoice in my many BLESSING! This hasn't always been my motto but it has been my motto as of Jan 2010! I just swallow because I believe everything has its purpose and some time it will rain and sometime it will be sunny! So when it rains I try my bestest to just pull out my umbrella and not complain!

BUT FUCK THAT ISH! I AM ONLY HUMAN! and Shit happens! Eventually I'll burst! But now that I am bursting I have something else in the back of my head weight loss....Yesterday I ate Pasta which I know I shouldn't! I even order some chips and I just looked at them, I didn't open them (Gave them away) but still in my mind I want to hide behind food but there is a big part of me that is saying NOPE! Starve and just be MAD deal with it!!! I don't know who will win while this storm passes but I sure hope it's the skinny girl that is dying to come out and not the fat girl that is ready to eat the world!

Tomorrow I am hoping on the scale for a follow up but peeps, I am not looking forward to it! I don't think I lost a pound although my clothes this week has been fitting rather big, I'll take it for what it is tomorrow on the scale! Womp Womp

And for some entertainment an Oldie but Goodie

Enjoy

--Ex Fat Girl