A bad week

I can't really say I have had a bad week or day during my 6 weeks on this regimen! Well actually I am going through one! I excepted it and I actually excepted it earlier than now! [Maybe thats why I am so shocked and down about going through it] -But everyone is entitled to a bad day right

It started with Sunday, I brought my niece a slice of pizza (my favorite) and I brought myself a salad...It started with taking a little tiny bit of the tip and saying "it will cure my cravings" than it I took a bigger smaller piece because it can't hurt....Fine I gave it to her and ate my chicken salad....yum yum DELICIOUS.....I walk back to the kitchen and there it is...half of the slice, my niece barely touched it....so I said what the hell it shouldn't go to waste and I took a bite that one bite led me to eating the whole thing....No biggie, I said now I had pizza and I ran this morning so I am not going over calories and tomorrow I will kick butt in the gym (which I did!)

Than Monday, It was the little brother birthday dinner and we went to BBQs- what that means = 5 Pieces of Fried shrimps, an order of fries and a half of sticky wing!

Again no biggie I will make up for it and be okay

Tuesday, no gym "because I was just soo soo tired" I over did it with the chicken, yes it was grilled skinless, but I kept getting up from my bed to pinch the brest and take after I have had more than enough.....Again it's just CHICKEN, chicken like this does no harm!

Wedneday- I passed by a piece of red velvet cake and guess who took it! ME, on top of that I had a cup of trail mix....that piece of red velvet was way beyond what I should have been eating that really did it for me!!!

And so I am here, a little down because it hasn't been a good week and I am afraid of falling into old habits all over again! I am not sure why now?!?! Yes, I am bored of eating the same thing over and over, yes I wish I could sleep in a little more than go to work out to the same routine...yes I wish there was a button that would control my hunger and I could turn it on and off....and yes I get so mad that I have to put so much much much effort because otherwise I'll probably move no where!

Today as I was so weakly doing my routine, it hit me...if on June 25th I hop on the scale and GAIN A POUND I WILL BE DEVASTED so why even allowed myself to feel that...I am determine to go harder after this horrible weekend and I will!

--Ex Fat Girl